Hey Guys,

I know its been awhile since I updated the blog...So much has been going on here...as usual.  Normally I dont have much time for blogging but tonight, I've got a lil bit of time.

So, I dont know where to really begin..Sorry for the delay in new vids..if y'all even noticed...LOL...got two new ones coming soon, just havent gotten them done yet....got so much on my mind.

So much of life is Cliches and stereotypes, yet they are kinda true sometimes.....

As a gay guy, I always worried about contracting HIV. But I went to my Doctors not toolong ago, land after she goaded me into an HIV test, which I was kinda aprehensive about, It came back negative....Non-reactive she said matter of factly.......I was so relieved.  I went to see her in the first place, because one day I woke up with a headache....KInda unusual for me since, I have had about ten headaches in my entire life.... after the headache wouldnt go away after almost 30 days, she did a complete work up on me...cholesterol, diabetes check, liver function, blood pressure, etc,etc  HIV test...and a CT scan....They all came back normal...finally around the 30th day or so, I woke up with facial numbness on one side of my face....I was convinced I was having a stroke......I calmed myself down and went to work, eventually the numbness, turned into tingling...MY doc sent me to a specialist For an MRI wich came back abnormal. Apparently MRI is more sensitive than CT.

They admitted me to the Hospital for some tests...spinal tap, and they still werent able to tell me what it was they spotted in my brain, they had it narrowed down to cancer, sarcoid, or sometime of bacteria or fungus..  It really worried me, that they couldnt tell me what it was.....a second MRI during my 4 days in the hospital, showed what they Called a "progression of the Disease"  nesteled in my brain stem.....Here I am worried about contracting HIV, and apparently Ive got something just as serious and now all the cliches about life...."Live life to fullest" "Life is short" "Live everyday like it's your last" come to mind with new meaning for me.

Man...so much crap going on here.....

Another couple of LOCAL str8boy models we've made films with have been outed.  Just came home from the DR's and had five messages from two of our real, amateur, str8guys...Who were calling in a panic becuase theyve been spotted on the internet.....one of the models is married with a kid.....

The other is a str8 guy who already has remorse about being in some vids......and who was outed once before.  They are both clearly very upset..... and the funny thing is that since I appear in a lot of the vids...When they are outed,  IM outed too.  As much as I hate my crappy ol job......I dont want to lose it from being outed.  But I suspect I will once my employer finds out there is an amateur gay pornstar in their midst...LOL  It really sucks. 

 The guys think I have my own site.....and I can control who see their pics...I suspect that they are actually on amvc.com looking at some of the pics...Just from some of the stuff they have said people have spotted them doing..I dont really know....

The funny thing is that the HOMOPHOBIC one wont deny its him when he gets called out.   I dont get it.  When/IF IM called out...the first thing IM going to do is deny it....

He asked me..."you want me to call them back and get the site address they said they spotted me on?"  I was like "NO"  Just deny its you....he was like "oh  ok"

I just wonder how far its going to go?  One of these ex-models coming back over to beat me up and or kill me over one of the amateur vids?

I just dont know what to do.....THis is suppossed to be "fun"......  a  "Dream JOB"  and yet, it is quickly turning into a nightmare....

I 've been having a constant headache for the last month and half or so..I very seldom get headaches Ive had maybe ten in my life....This one has been around for the last six weeks....It eases up everynow and again, but it HASNT left completely in six weeks....Finnally get up the nerve to go to the doctor...Stay there for 5 hrs or so......He didnt conduct ANYtests, and gave a script good for a week, and sent me home...Complete waste of 75 bucks in my opinion.....I walk in the house, and have the messages from the two models...I suspect I'll have to delete my xtube account or at least remove the vids...The xtube vids help me make sales at amvc.com.  Or at least I think they do.. 

I guess I've been lucky as far as Model drama goes.   I thought the reason why we hadnt had many models outed and or harrassed was becuase they "really were str8"  No chance of their "str8" friends spotting them and calling them out.  and I guess it worked for two years or so....But now....not so much.  I thought that being selective about who I filmed that I could kinda feel confident that the models WOULDNT be outed.  From my perspective, once they are outed...The real "str8guys" pretty much wont appear in anymore vids.  So I have a built in incentive to help the from being outed.....and I have failed.

It makes me feel bad.  Which with this raging headache I have had for 6 weeks...makes me pretty much wanna just close up shop.  Launching this website is a more daunting task than I imagined.....And I suspect the "outing factor" will increase...especially when the models outers find out about Schmoe.com or whatver We name it.....and realize that we control it.....Again I find out that "realism" does infact have a price.

Anyway, enough pissin and moaning......We took an impromtu trip to Fla on Friday.......BY car...and back on Sunday.  Every time I drive to FLA...I always swear that it will be my last time...and it never is...

Anyway, we stopped at Lumberjacks campground resort in Unadilla GA....(yeeHaaww)  Ive been wanting to get there for a couple years...and since we were driving right by...we decided to call them and stay the night.  It's a lil bit off the beaten path, But it was really nice....Both the place and the people.  My only complaint was we couldnt stay longer.  Cant wait to go back and check it out.  We were in the car....So it was a lil weird being in one of their cabins....No phone.....No tv   Just darkness and the sound of nature all around us.....Then off in the distance...the pulsating sound of club music.......Turns out, there is a Night club there also  open from 9-2am   I havent been to a club in a long time...I was tired from our marathon drive...a couple cocktails at the bar, and within 10 minutes of hitting the sack...I was out cold. 

All-in-all I had a nice time there.  Cant wait to go back and stay longer...Thought about going in July....and takin some models.....

Anyway, our latest film crackers crumble...Was delayed cause i sent a faulty disc...Got it re-done, but our other film .....Say it Loud....Im whitetrash and I'm Proud is almost finished..  Im trying to get the index done... so I can send them in together but truthfully My heart just aint in it.

I know y'all think IM playin.....BUt I would almost bet you guys are looking at some of the very last Schmoe vids........So be sure to to get them now...While they are still available......

JOE

 A guy inquired about what its like to work with AMVC....and another guy responed like he knew what AMVC was all about.  Trouble his his info was wrong..  I kinda waited for someone to step in and correct him but no-one did...so I responded with info from my Three-years-this-month experience with AMVC.

IN my reply I mentioned xtube, and the fact that our full lenght movies are not available there..  Some one ratted me out to Kurtis from xtube and we exchanged a few emails.

I had links to our page at amvc in my xtube profile, and a link to my blog here at hello penis.  MY xtube account has had about 18 million views, and whe didnt even have videos on for over a year....I really like amateur porn and in the begining, xtube was really alll about amateur porn....

anyway, Kurtis edited my account, and wrote me and said He couldve deleted it if he wanted to......He was mad becuase I mentioned that We have had collectors buy multiple titles from our lil "commercials" we have posted on xtube.  

Had I not felt compelled to "set the record straight"  I guess my xtube profile wouldve have still been under the radar.....anyway, Kurtis was wondering why xtube and Joe Schmoe arent doing business together, especialy since I "stole" some of his traffic. 

To make a long story short, I kinda agreed to use an amateur account to sell some schmoe content.  He sent me the contract.......But I dont have a printer lol.

Its given me time to think about what I should offer on there....I want it to be a complement to to full lengths which are only available at AMVC.com   not a competition....Im thinking  mostly jack-off clips and "outtakes"....

One of our models was recently outed...and the guy wrote to me asking if the models name was really such and such.......like I would say.....

So  now Im totally fucked up regarding even wanting to DO an account with xtube.. and you know, Im not really thrilled about what they pay.  Im trying to figure out how to make if profitable, yet not compete with the vids from AMVC...and not overly expose the guys...to being "outed"

I know they signed model releases....I have scanned all of their  ID's which to me kinda proves beyond a reasonable doubt that the models knew what they were being filmed for, yet I always feel bad when they are outed. 

The one kid called me crying, after his friend accused him of being on the internet... I felt real bad.....for him.   Then wondered about my own reaction whenever Im finally outted...I suppose it will cause me to get fired.....At my age it seems like jobs are kinda tough to find.....

And we are still working on starting our website.....I was pretty comfortable with the idea BEFORE the Creepy email and one of the models being outed, but now Im not so sure....At anyrate I dont really see the point of offering the same exact content on AMVC, XTUBE, and our website....so I gotta figure out a way for them to complement each other and not compete against each other.....

so anyway.....

Shot some footage of Jason a couple days ago......

Not sure if i Should use it.....He's on house arrest, and he called me a couple days ago, asking if I would come over to give him some head.....Normally I wouldve been like    no, thats OK...But I thought it might make some good footage, plus he was painting his sons room and wanted me opinion on the color and techmique....I  was filmed describing what was going to happen,  and in the car on the way to Jasons apt.  His old lady was at work for another 45mins, but his KId,   jason JR was home.  I never filmed Junior and he was in the living room and Jason and I were in JR's room painting, when we closed the door and I served him up......Pretty hot huh? considering the ol lady couldve walked in at any minute....Later watching the clip, It dawns on me that you can hear 5 yr old JR's voice, he's on the other side of the closed door, but still you can hear him.  It  got me wondering, is it legal?  If jason was outed becuase of this clip, his ol lady would have a fit.....He's on house arrest( ive filmed him on house arrest before at my house) what if someone from the city spotted him?  Would they call CPS?  So now im in a dillemma....Shout I just edit out JR's voice? or just scrap the whole scene altogehter?

Shot some new footage of NEW uncut 19yr old whiteboy Brian along with his buddy blaze in a duo Jack dual facial scene.

Brian is sooooo Shy...and y'all know blaze aint really that shy.........Anyway they jack side by side for awhile, Brian is full of nervous laughter......I end up serving them both up going form one young white thug dick to the other......Blaze shoots in my face first.....and even before he's completey finished, brian jumps up and gives his first facial ever...he's never shot in a girls face....Y'all know he shoots usually six feet or so....and he ends up covering my lens in his cum accidentally.....it was kinda hot.

Here's whats funny.....Brian is so shy that his last girlfriend dumped him after only three weeks.  I shot him the last time the day after he spent the night at her house....She was kinda fat, and not that pretty...He said he fucked her alot...I asked him if she liked sucking his uncut meat....He said she aint NEVER sucked it before....Ive sucked it twice, and I think he really likes having his dick sucked, but since he's uncut, I think alot of girls his age, aint to keen to slurp on it.....next time he comes over, IM going to give him his best BJ ever....and see what happens......Can you imagine?  Them girls let him fuck them, but wont suck his cock?

Anyway, I gotta go for now

JOE

This guy wrote me this email this morning....he's from the nearby city...Ive never met him, or acted like I want to meet him...He wrote me about a year and a half ago demanding that we "trade guys" whatever that means, and or meet somewhere and be friends...Over the years people have written me before about wanting to show me how to make movies....but I just usually ignore them .....This guy creeped me out when he mentioned a place he  thought I worked at....I started ignoring him at that point...but today, when I woke up and checked my email...

I found a barely legible, incoherent, rambling diatribe from a lunatic....containing thinly vieled threats against me, black Joe, and the guys......

Not sure what I did to deserve this.  It kinda creeped me out more than this guys "regular" emails...

I didnt even mind the insults about me and black Joe....We know we aint models....but the rest of it, makes me wanna take my pistols to the indoor range and brush up on my skills..... I pity the person foolish enough to encroach upon the sanctity of my home, or endanger the people I care about in any way.

People act like that because youre making a few amateur movies on the internet that   youre just rolling in money....and all of a sudden youre some big film "producer" and can make films that are going  to please everyone. 

 I'll let you in on a lil secret.......I dont try to "please" any of y'all.....I just shoot what happens sometimes, with minimal direction...thats what I hate so much about studio porn, it's all over directed...to the point where you can usually tell its fake...It dont have to be pretty, just hasta be real to please me. 

 It's funny, becuase we make so Little money doing this that maybe the emailer is right.....Our movies do suck....Maybe I should just quit making movies and go back to just making films for private viewing.....Certainly wouldnt have to deal with being creeped out by psychos,  and the models being outed, and thinly veiled threats against my safety, and job.

Why does this guy think I owe him anything?  Becuase I had the misfortune to pick up some street trade who made a couple of jack-off vids?  Im supposed to "give" him my real amateur str8guys in exchange?  I knew this cat was fucked up from the very first time he contacted me....Just didnt know how much.

Anyway, I guess he'll be super pissed when our new black video comes out this week.......

Maybe Im the crazy one......No influx of major money  ie still have my crappy job........No fame......and huge amounts of risk...just to produce some real amateur videos......When is this psycho or some other psycho gonna get in their car and travel here to meet Blaze, or Tommy or some other model I shot 8 mos ago, and havent seen since?  LIke I said, I thought I knew the risks when starting this venture, but for what we are making money wise, Y'all are prolly lookin at some of the last schmoevids.....It's not the tricks and /or streettrade im real worried about.....It's some of the so called fans....

Joe

Been meaning to..but never really get around to doing it....

Been working on three new films...its funny cause they are all really different from each other....so far I have them titled....

party at Joe's  you cummin...?

It's new ghetto whiteboy Chuck, plus Blaze and Lucky, and    Blaze and chez...Then chez and black Joe. while blaze films....He's gotten pretty good with the camera...

Its weird, Bubba chez and Black Joe act like they are almost lovers or something...They french kiss and everything, and Chez Fucks the dogshit outta him....Older/younger  "reverse" interracial.....chez nutts all over Black Joe.....I even Nutt in this clip....

Chez is 27 now and I think just now begining to "find himself" sexually.  after 2 relationships with women and 5      count-em.... Five kids...

I've been busy filming these young cats...and while their dicks are hard and they can shoot cum several feet....most of them dont really know how to let themselves go..sexually...You hardly hear a peep outta them when they nutt...they dont know how to edge themselves to prolong that time in extascy right before orgasm...

When you finally get one of these guys to experiment a little bit, especially with something thats described to most lil boys as wrong, gross and disgusting for so long..that its almost ingrained in our brains right next to "dont touch the stove...it'l burn you" They expect that gay contact to be nasty...and when it's not only NOT NASTY but actually feels good...Maybe even the BEST BLOWjob or PEICE of ASS they have EVER had...thats when for alot of them... theres no going back.

It's like a secret among men....Str8Guys who have gone there know...a guy gives a great blowjob....or a peice of guy ass is prolly tighter than 99 percent of pussy out there, and is a great substitute for pussy when it aint available...

Sometimes I've regretted giving that str8guy his first guy BJ  or being some young guys first peice of guy ass...Just becuase I let the cat outta the bag so to speak..by revealing the secret among str8men, that guy/guy sex is hot or even hotter than str8 sex  partly becuase it's so "wrong"

Assuming you have trust.  I cant remember if I told you guys about me being Raped at 18 or not...But I was....and as you can see....I shouldnt/didnt have any trust with the  guy who held me down and physically raped me when I was 18 during an encounter in the back of his carpet layers van in california in 1984 or so....

Anyway....back to the films

party at joes...new guy chuck, Blaze and lucky  Facial/fucking       Chez/blaze    Chez/black Joe  Dick sucking/kissing/"reverse" interracial fucking

"Young Jungle  Cock"  is our other film... Young "street" black guys  older/younger interracial dick suckin

 I named it that becuase all the performers are young and black and from the nearby "concrete Jungle"  ie city.....It didnt dawn on me that some might find the title a lil racy....but oh well...

Anyway it's all young under 23 years old  "Street"  black guys with interviews and solos..Got lucky with this batch cause there aint a dick shorter than 7 inches....One of these black dudes is a real young looking 19 and I treat him to his first guy bj ever..It secretly thrills me that me white redneck lips are gliding along this black teen cock..First man to taste the "forbidden" taste of some teen black dick......

Anyway, I suck each of their black dicks I think theres five of them it's just over 2 hrs of young Black cock .

Crackers Crumble  Ghetto whiteboys rumble.....Is the third film....Yeah.... got the name from Blaze.  Made him proud that I used it....

Anyway, it's one of my favorite models...Young Country whiteboy Taz stopped by..Hadnt seen him in awhile...Had my camera rolling..makin small talk with thim...when he tells me about moving his trailer, cause he got kicked outta the trailer park....It's too funny becuase these vids really are unscripted vids...and people watching will be like  "he told him to talk about his trailer"  But I really didnt...I dont usually let them talk about drugs, and locations and names...but other than that....I dont really care...

Anyway,  I kinda forgot how nice Taz's upcurved rock hard cock was...It was a pleasant surprise getting a call from him early that morning wanting to know if we wanted his first nutt of the day.....Just as he was nuttin...the doorbell rings....LOL  talk about unplanned, amateur video....Our doorbell isnt even that generic DING DONG sound its just DING....Everytime Im watching the clip I hear the sound and think its my doorbell...

Scene 2 is one of my favorites of the young guys ...He dont look like much, but he's smart and super nice, and even though he's 21  he kinda has the body of a seventeen year old...I've NEVER seen his dick soft, and he "sprays cum" usually...He's got bad acne scars though and his hair is kinda a mess...but  for me theres something almost a lil sex-crime ish about him...I found pretty hot...

I filmed him twice...Fucked Black Joe off cam with a condom, and came in like 2 minutes.....It was weird though cuase he fucked like a savage...grunting groaning, crazy faces whole nine yard..... takes the condom off shoots like 6 feet... two jets that far, then like 6 more smaller ones.... Turns out "steve" thats his name in the vids...Tells us he's a VIRGIN.....Didnt masturbate ever untill age 18 and is a VIRGIN  never had his dick sucked or fucked anything other than his hand...till now...Crazy huh? 

 I guess I shoulda filmed him fucking Black Joe...But for his first fuck performance...Just thought it would be better without the cam, plus I could J/O and watch my pal Black Joe get nailed by the redneck skaterboy....

Chance dropped by to make a solo vid...I end up suckin his dick for a lil bit then he kicks back in the chmoe lounger and busts one out....He cute in the Boy-next-door-kinda way......

19yr old country UNCUT whiteboy brian...is actually blazes buddy in real-life...he's very shy and homophobic.....But he's a sprayer...nice uncut cock on him...country accent Posted a short clip of him from a DIFFERENT film on my xtube accountjoe schmoe xtube account   Im only going to leave it up for a couple days....

THe last scene is with these guys I call the odd couple.....Our model chance called me and said he had two guys whoe were boyfriends who wanted to make a video together....Its funny,, cause I havent really filmed many gay guys....funyy cause we have gay sex in our vids..yet Im sitting here writing that we dont really film many gay guys....anyway....he says they are 34 and 21....They really are 34 and 21...But the 21 yr old who I found kinda hot in a odd trashy way.... looks 35  I dont really care though.... anyway the whole time they are at my place they are texting away.....Im like are they filming me?  Taking my picture, wtf are they doing?  Turns out, they are texting each other while sitting in the same room....I ask them y'all boyfriends?    "yeah yeah' They say...I interview each  of them seperately.  the 34 yr old says he's BI....How old were you when you first got laid by a woman...?  I ask.......I've never fucked a woman he says.

Turns out him and the 21 tr old live together and call each other BF....But apparently never have sex.  I ask mr 21 yr old how long its been since he busted a nutt......He says 90 days.....LOL  Im like wtf?

I bring them in 34 yr old is almost drooling and mr 21 yr olds 2 inch peter.....I "make" mr 34 yr old suck it...Im talking nasty and dirty to him the whole time he's sucking it....at some point it dawns on me...I prolly COULD MAKE mr 34 yr old PAY ME instead of me having to pay him...becuase I "made" him suck his "BF's" cock....  Anyway....These guys aint the prettiest guys by no stretch but theyre clip is real...Mr 21 yr old nutts in his BF's mouth..and face....Mr 34 yr old litterally begs Mr. 21 yr old to jack him off...I thought good luck with that dude specially since he just came....But mr 21 yr old does jack him off, and he CUMS a ton.....I watched the clip a couple days ago, and found it hot...so It's in the film......

anyway.....thats all thats going on around here......

till next time

Joe